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Grief never ages. It idles,
Fearful, watchful and worrisome.
Don't want that. Death tempts,
The price, a Walmart's
Pills by the mouthful can partner,
your pillar worth chump change?
One goes, the other follows
It’s chiseled in coupled tombstones.
Check it out!
c. E.D. Ridgell, 2018
A Last Lie!
were walking side by side
In a high-tide, wetland of the
hot Somerset sun,
And I had warned Tom not to trust the stones,
When, all of a sudden, down goes Tom.
Turning, I spy him stalled there,
with spoon and melon still in hand
Standing upright in a
grave, unfazed as always,
And bent upon finishing his melon.
He just loved Somerset cantaloupe.
How am I to forgive God
What does Tom do to suffer such horror
for which now
I funnel teaspoon after teaspoon down parsed
The hospice worker lets me know the end is near,
And I am free to handle the dosage as I see fit.
Do I read significance in his gaze? Is this some message?
No, I cannot put out the light I have worked this hard
To keep lit even for a little while.
We share that
same religion that belies an independent coarse.
I bend down
for one last kiss and whisper a last lie-
alright to die. I’ll be okay.”
Old Man Won't You Look At Me Now!
I just spied a mirror,
I do believe Im still here!
How did I contrive to
get this old?
There are a few comrades
All of us caught in the headlights!
politics are nasty, downright uncivil!
a tired old hippie
holding out a wilted
Do you think that was easy?
Is a man three score plus not a marvel to behold?
c. E.D. Ridgell, 2016
|Twain's House in Hartford Connecticutt
A Jewel In Hartford's Crown
She still bespeaks a commission for ingenuity.
is fancy and whimsical, dressed in Victorian Gothic,
A rarity so like his
imagination. Were the ceilings
Mark twain high? I didn't think to ask.
The docent was intent on time,
A metaphor himself, for the harried
Wrought by death and time to this house gone homeless.
She's long since fallen out of mode, her
Replaced by things more recent and pressing to Hartford.
He loved to gaze from her eyes but found this too distracting,
When his pen raced its way across page after page.
He mused instead
in a windowless corner near a sunlit desk
Overlooking a beautiful, felt covered,
Sporting his gentlemanly manor.
The girls were dear in those early years
And they liked to play with cherubs
from atop the bed's headboard.
Many years later he'd die,
His head wrong way round, so that he might gaze
these angels with their sad reflections.
Invention placed ambition before caution,
And the house was lost.
He was to lose so much more.
Almost the last one standing, he bore on and
While she fell into disrepair and he into despair.
"...a time when one's spirit
Is subdued and
sad, one knows not why;
When the past seems a storm-swept desolation,
Life a vanity and a burden, and the
a way to death."
so, first with Suzy, then Olivia, and finally with Jean
He hung on,
waiting. Tenacious to the end
He did precisely what he said he would.
He came in with Haley's comet
And he flew
out on her fiery tail,
Seventy four years later,
One of his nation's most beloved writers.
and whimsical on the outside, serious within,
He so complimented that beloved
home that restored still stands today;
Waiting and warmly welcoming all,
including me to
A jewel in Hartford's crown.
© 2008 by E.D. Ridgell, all rights reserved
I love you,
too, my Little Aquitaine,
The first born,
bridge over the grief
These five years, now, when then,
Your other grandfather,
The better half my soul,
Left just missing you, and I
The other side of bereft,
Beyond any need but wasting away-
And she presented you
To see there nestled in my arms
hint of another morning
To beacon hope,
suggest some purpose
For not just falling away.
And yesterday, in the midst of a family
So recently blessed,
Yet again in such confusion
At the tandem of change
You were there to say;
love you Pop-Pop. I miss you.
When will you be back?”
And, oh my precious Aquitaine,
Know that I will never leave you,
But will always be with you
Even if but a whisper
To caress your pretty cheek
With a gentle touch,
The soft wind on the brow to remind you,
Past the distance through all change
the silly seeming confines of time.
I wish that I could tell you
The world is a happier place.
I wish that
Could have a greener earth.
Walks on stilts
O'er sodden ground, down drowning in apathy.
down on Wall Street protesters
Waving martini's sporting twists of lemon
And somehow nowhere.
sore festers to beget two.
It's have or have not,
me, sweet Jesu,
As the full flower moon salutes the night.
"I follow on the water."
|Pic is the copyright of another....
Reactions of a Black Sheep to The Black
In emotive ejaculations-
To the snap crackle pop
Of some secondary addiction.
My cherry broke
To the first stroke
And I never looked back-
knew I was not normal,
But in some
Where escape would
Never be wanted.
I came so close to
To not taking the bit
And riding naked into the night
On Equus in that search for Parnassus.
I am indebted to their abuse
Each and everyone,
And for the kindness and empathy
“BOOM. BOOM. BOOM —
The shock of every second
Of still being alive!”
still here. I still live.
Those waves breaking
In emotive ejaculations-
To the snap crackle and pop
Of some secondary addiction.
© 2011 by E.D. Ridgell
Suddenly Like Somebody!
I feel that curtain
Of disabling depression
in on me,
Dims the stage lights
That I need
Different and special
In some small way-
In the first grade
Sixty years ago
She gave me crayons.
I drew a happy house
Under a disarming
Hold it up, for all to see,
And I felt
Suddenly, like somebody!
Hephaestion was the childhood friend of
the Great, fellow student of
Aristotle, and his principle confident as well
as one of his generals for life. Labels before
Christian era regarding "straight" or "homosexual"
just not able to convey the entirely different
sexual mores and attitudes
preference and practices between the two distinct
times. Hephaestion was Alexander the Great's principle
lover and only trusted confident throughout his life yet
wives and begat children.
Hephaestion's death shortly before Alexander's
possible influences on Alexander afterwards is
interesting enough to Google if history is your thing.
form of the poem is a ghazal.
Broken, Bucephalus took the bit-
no docile ass onward to switch hit.
Salutations of twilling
dare never a shrilly chord switch hit.
The many intrigues and treasons thwarted-
no other allegiances
to accords switch hit.
In years of endearment, heralding
sentiments with sudden fell switch hit;
the subject, poor in degree, switch hit.
And come the summons-genuflecting,
passion’s plea no switch hit.
True loyalty on one knee, head bowed;
supplicant portending the switch hit.
He kills in His cups, but not this time.
Not Hephaestion! Lay down switch hit!
© 2008 by E.D. Ridgell
still say a mass for Larry
All Souls Day,
passed two years now
gone also, told me that
and Larry had a falling out
a decades long affair.
It’s just as Cindy says. Russell
Disappeared from the face
of the earth,
And I feel my
neglect of him bores deep.
hope he did not pour himself into a potter’s field,
For Charm City.
He’d grown far too cockeyed,
A liquor-free fundamentalist.
so cocksure, nowadays.
haven’t a clue,
you can count be in.
there is and never will be
proof of an Almighty-
it’s faith alone,
like me you’ve an angel.
Once upon a time,
A sandy haired, little boy napped atop a
White, chenille bedspread of pom-poms,
Only to awaken and find an older boy
Seated at the foot of the bed
With a reassurance and a
Smile broad enough to last a lifetime.
E.D. Ridgell, 2015
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Two wounded hearts
Seek shoring up
At an ensuing
Parting to come
As sand measures
Time slipping away.
As death saunters
Sundering up and o'er
Our last defenses
'Fore ushering in grief-
Intruding on thundering hooves
Jumping a final fence.
Going on, not caring where,
Into tedious rituals of living,
Slowly wasting away, I
Lamenting your departing,
Deftly mimic anything
To mask the pain
Of losing you.
2005 E. D. Ridgell
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The Last Lie
In the last hours alone
Just you and I,
It was here-
I knew you were beyond pain.
I hoped you could hear
last, loving lie;
“It’s OK to die
I’ll be alright!”
c. E.D. Ridgell
The other side of an
Anything not witnessed
We paint rocks
Dig and sift
© 2005 E.D.Ridgell
I have known six generations now,
And it is unlikely I see many more.
That is a long line with many to know-
Too many to meet!
I am a scribe. I
unravel lines while
I hit walls.
There are secrets to
Then scatter under the
Left untold in ashes
I know of heroes. I know of fools.
I know many folk make family
And some stories beget more.
spiders never cease spinning
their webs grow and grow. I am
to lie in one, sticky melding.
Who the next weaver may be
I do not know. I will cast the net
Far and wide in hopes to snag
A curious currycomb to groom the
Never shedding coat of shame and fame.
I hope it makes the silver threads
Glow for you as they did for me.
I was neither the first nor the last
To reckon the snare of time,
And you, faire future kinsman
never tie the ends together.
me!” Do not leave me
c. E.D. Ridgell
The Last Supper Of Aunt Bea
Andy finds her half in and half out of the oven,
anything but askew. Her feet strew the floor
One pointed left and the other right
In a perfect perpendicular.
A paisley dress of floral barkcloth
Testifies it is a Sunday and that
She keeps the faith.
Still resonates from her mornings touch.
violet water perfume caresses the air,
Rising with the odorless gas.
Atop a Maytag is dinner’s faire, half prepared.
The table is
covered with worn, linen cloth
Patterned in her favorite roses,
on gossamer buds.
Beatrice is finished
all the tedious rituals
Of sewing bees and church suppers.
reasons are similes to that
Perfectly folded towel falling
With sides precisely parallel
Hanging from the horizontal bar
Screwed to the scrappily, scrubbed wall-
The wall Just
above her impeccably clean oven
With that turned knob, its vertical, white line
Ignoring the insistence of the horizontal lines
the remaining three and marking
The last supper of Aunt Bea.
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When she died, I realized everything
I did not know
about her was gone with her,
The intimate private things;
Thoughts, passions, hurts, secrets- the pride she took
In a polka dot dress still lingering
there in a closeted box,
Touches and scents meant for her alone, that excruciating
Painful mess of it all at the end of
both our bitter trials.
It struck me, that baleful event
Estranging me from you,
Did not help to acquaint me with
the real you.
reason forgave you but my heart was left hollow.
They say death leaves a hole that can not be filled.
Did that hole have to be in me? Why? Was I your
only winking doll
To stick those pins into. Seduced to be stabbed in the end-
or was it the pain? It must have been so painful!
When he died it was that time of passage,
When I wanted to have some answers.
No longer your
pensioner and still divided from him
I had become an island unto myself. I was island bound.
I learned more about him after he was gone
Than ever I
had known when he was alive,
But I dug deep this time. I searched his secrets out,
Secrets you had known all the time. Did you
use these as weapons-
No, I know you did not.
He would not be laid to rest next to you. Why?
Was it that
other old man,
that would be, could be, father of his that didn't quite jive.
Even in death, the both of you taunt me.
That family as far West as they can be, still remembers you,
Idolizing your beauty. Over a half a century later
still a knockout in the browning photos and
Hand-me-down memories. One sister still lives.
Perhaps it’s no mistake
that I’ve kept this single link unbroken.
Perhaps yet, I can find the energy to dig deep again,
Learn more about you now
Than I ever
knew when you were still alive,
and thereby reckon the hurt more to one you loved
most, I think, than not. Pain
strikes out at what it can most still reach.
I came to love and miss him.
I’d like to go out loving and missing you, just a little more, Marmion-
2010 by E.D. Ridgell
I find more and more
Ways to fill the days.
I surf for possibilities-
My interests are waning. I understand.
The specialist cancels-
Fails to get back to me.
I’m supposed to make an appointment.
fox trotted enough! I understand.
She checks me out on Facebook,
a thing or two,
But never ever comments.
She’s protecting her identity. I understand.
There is just enough oxygen
To glean in casual conversation,
The laziness of any real interest.
of another tribe. I understand.
I saw the child in him just once
he collided with a brother.
It lay to rest any fear
He might be a dullard. I understand.
I glean, always the last
They dig a hole in the backyard-
My mind journeys to that field
Where you grow impatient. I understand.
I recall we touched
On her, a little, and laughed, but
I did not miss
the sadness in her voice.
We were smothering. I understand.
love us but at a safe distance.
It’s not uncommon or
Never one to push pedal to medal,
I wait patiently at the crossing. I understand.
Much as I love them
I observe them build
Their own castles of sand
Too close to the incoming
tide. I understand.
E.D. Ridgell, 2015
The Closed Door
This side the door abasement,
Degradation to demean,
Forges the fostered
Into cruel excitement.
Beyond the door-
Numb the gut to
side the door
Barred from the norm.
Truth transfixed upon an arm’s
Beyond the door,
Blue, bruised, beaten breasts,
Do not seduce a son’s pity.
This side the door
To revenge and
Prick out identity.
Peer past the boy.
Once intent to steal some notice,
waits no more in hope.
This side the door- la recette,
The fault not in Achilles but mortal
Oedipal seed sown
Of queer deed
© 2005 E. D. Ridgell
Has moved out of harm’s way,
Into arms o’er there, on the far metaphor,
the cool shade and fluttering wings.
Cleansed clean as when anointed
In fine, Irish linen, swaddling
He came into this world,
Full of unshaded, primary things.
Tempered with trials and troubles,
The hot blood of a
Wastrel and wealthy kinfolk,
America’s sacrificial Kennedy clan.
In these last decades
He found his calling.
Teddy rose high in the legislative annals
Of this Great Republic.
The sod is not set and yet
Men behind curtains
Slide a cosmopolitan, pretty boy
He is stalwart history now,
Left leaving that dream
Parading on in its long, long,
March to equality.
“For all those whose cares
have been our concern, the work goes on,
the cause endures, the hope still lives,
and the dream shall never die. ...”
© 2018 by E.D. Ridgell
I Think Back On Black
In the immediacy of grief
Of that black, one-piece swimsuit
That so suited you.
It was another meet won,
it was not so much
triumph, as your stroke
the whooping of it.
Just once before
I’d seen your breaststroke,
Practiced with particular pride-
The beauty of a crane,
Its wings waking the water
Just before the tranquil stillness
That signals its sinking into a settled rest.
Vividly etched in my memory,
I remember that day
When you sent the others away.
After the morning swim,
With reassuring words you conveyed
This was my day of baptism-
For the first time I must duck
My sandy, sun bleached hair
Under the, green, Bay water.
patiently you urged me on,
little boy, so hesitant, and frightened-
So anxious not to let you down.
We struggled on and through,
And with both of us triumphant,
You took me up to the cottage house-
You put me before the others that day only,
For favorites were not your way.
in my grief
I can still taste
The saltlick Chesapeake as
I think back on black!
"Who are you?"-
The only thing to muse over,
I wait for time,
Too fast, too fast, to catch-
Late, again? Always.
smiles and dies away.
The date is set in memory
Of a bright, near moon
Casting a shadow over the awe of it.
I ache in codeine cups,
Spewing tears out ducts
Down runways, well worn lines-
Aging speedways to the high teas
Of my long,
Today, bunnies graze in the lawn
Beyond the windowpane,
While the Mad Hatter in my brain,
Runs in and
out, up and down-
A black hole, no rabbit hole,
But another chit out my
Patch quilted heart,
While musing the
Cheshire cat's having
© 2012 by E.D. Ridgell
My Liberal Bleeding Heart!
you would not shoot the dove
…and you would not stick the straw dummy
With your soldier bayonet. The ‘Sarge’
Kicked your sorry ass all the
way back to the barracks
…and still you would not comply, my gentle brave heart!
You were so gentle with birds; pigeons, downy ducks, and geese-
All these were a part of my time with you, dead but never lost.
I have it here
locked in my heart, my liberal bleeding heart!
of you a little every ensuing day, and the last day of March
Still marches o’er
this broken heart, my liberal bleeding heart
...and you would not shoot the dove, no, not
you, my gentle man.
You were the bravest of the brave and the gentlest of men
... and you would not stick the straw dummy, but you would
Stab my heart, my sorry
ass liberal bleeding heart!
E.D. Ridgell, 2017
Sunshine on My Shoulders
Sunshine, my little Leo,
Always sounding with laughter,
Shore your heart and follow your bliss
To wherever you may wander,
you ever suspect
You are abandoned and alone
At one of life’s little hiccups,
Know this: it is not so.
Of all that came before,
Swirl about you, guardians and
Stewarts moving through time,
Lighting the way and
Mending any broken toys.
Some are of that long shoe string that runs matrilineal
Through Lygon, a Major for a faire Mary, a Harris
Heralding from Crixee, lying in Henrico;
Farther back in a same train to meander through
Coeur de Lions and their forebears;
And with still another string, my tie, moored to Poseidon
With islands of strange names like Smith and Tangier,
Now mostly ghostly and no more. Add to these add
More threads woven of that Green Isle,
and yet another of a greatly grandmother
At the foot
of the Alhauer Alps-
All the diverging, divers, and sundry
regions of an Old World
Entangling your spirit and soul, and
Emulate the best and noblest of these.
Be free of any fear of death
Knowing it is but a passing back
arms that are always waiting,
Reflextions longing to
enfold you once again,
Not the least and brightest mirrored
I am Edward, son of the same,
One of many watching wards who with gentle reminders,
Whispers on the air, brush your wispy hair.
We, descended of forerunners,
in lines that bind us all
In wakes parting in that honor and
fidelity to family,
Are all of one accord in espousing all
Be a gentle man even if the times are not.
Forsake all temptations that might temper what is noblest in you.
Champion the less fortunate, succor the needy, and
Preserve what is righteous and true.
Stand up to tyranny, safeguard justice, and by your heritage
Be as a color blue; primary, mixed of no other colors that might
Lesson the beautiful attributes of your hue.
Blue does not excuse you from the many responsibilities due,
I am your grandfather. Know me and hear me in these words I ensue,
Though still here, child, circumfluent around you
a misty love stuffed in a toy box of temperate reminders to sue, and
Although you can not see and touch it, encircles you still,
Many years since when with these few love laced lines,
Branching from the heart, I penned this little poem for you,
My Sunshine, my little Leo.
© 2007 E. D. Ridgell
A Farewell To Arms
The children visited today,
And I touched
on you a couple of times,
Gently, just lightly grazing on your memory.
Showing Ally a picture of Tom,
I spoke of pancreatic
cancer and my own loss.
took this much as a sweetheart would,
But then all three of them are sweethearts,
Trying to make sense out of this rum world.
you softened, any? I hope so, and
I think you know, I'll do the best
I can. Rest.
is as cut and dry as we sometimes
Reckon it to be. Each chapter turns, as
A turnstile, and we turn every which way it turns.
All I ever did was tumble like a tumbleweed through storms
that inevitably followed one on another, one after the other.
I'll be riding the carousel a little while
Longer. I'll do the best I can, I promise you.
sad I missed your last call the night you died,
But as I listened to
your last words to me,
I could not but take to heart, those not spoken.
E.D. Ridgell, 2013
me she is softy
Stepping, my tiny, furry,
still just a kitten.
She curls to sleep,
Of a night
to the right of,
Not to the left of,
But right on top of my feet.
It anchors the affection
Rolling to and fro,
Back and forth
On her slick and sleek,
Back of fur,
Shows how much
She trusts me.
name is Meka, as in
"Take me kause I'm pretty!"
Politely she sits waiting
For me to give her
Exactly two treats,
No more, no less.
It's a ritual.
No one can explain to
How my feline friend
Can hang from me
Nobody can explain how I know
She's my last little companion.
I just do.
c. E.D. Ridgell, 2014
I climbed the big feather bed
As a cool breeze whistled
Through cornfields outside,
And I fell into a innocent sleep.
The air smelled sweat as I toyed
With white chenille pompoms.
It was a summer’s nap.
awoke to a soft voice
Safe, soothing, then gone.
That afternoon a black snake out the creek-
I knew no fear as though the boy were near.
Dick hacked and hung
it from the fence and
trusted Michael ever since.
c. E. D. Ridgell 2015
*Rudy served in Nam and
is decorated for action
fire. So much for
Ask. Don't Tell!"
In Medias Res
Of our many musings in medias res
miss those most at end of day
When we nestled side by side
With Kitty atop my lap
Purring dreams of prey
Would settle into silent unspoken close of day
Now silence screams at me in such a way
To harshly herald
a costly price to pay
For those innocent lost musings in medias res
© 2005 E.D.Ridgell
A Picture Perfect Day, Today.
They’ve all left now, finally.
I’ve only ever wanted to die alone
free from the eyes and hands
This is a home in which I am not at home.
The doors swing silently and there are no locks save one.
It is my last move, I know. I doubt I’ll need most things
in those brown boxes they packed and labeled for me.
Where has the white box gotten to, my pills and pictures?
There it is over there. I’ll get it later, if
I decide to play with my pills
today, or maybe I’ll cut one or two in half to save for the future.
want to look at pictures today, desperate attempts to recapture
summary events slowly fading away. Someone just came
in and left without
saying a word to me. That’s OK. I’m feeling tired today, so busy disappearing. E. D.
Threadbare dry goods in a pine desk here
bruised and folded in a blue mound,
soldiering hats hanging on my heart I fear,
like the camouflage cap
in the shed at the rear,
'side dry hemlocks fainting pale flowers down.
Threadbare dry goods in a pine desk here
lie with dog tags cold to the touch and queer;
these taps in a hewn box you found-
hanging on my heart. I fear
hallowed eyes of a prized bisque so dear
spying trembling hands once wrapped
threadbare dry goods. In a pine desk here
dungarees in the bottom drawer tease a tear
the company of years lying ‘round
soldiering hats hanging on my heart I fear.
Oh were it not so and
love’s fate less clear,
and I had nary a need for these to abound;
threadbare dry goods in a pine box here
soldiering hats hanging on my heart I fear.
© 2006 E.D.Ridgell
What is this,
What did I do, grow up?
I’m not Peter Pan.
Where would I go?
This life doesn’t run
E. D. Ridgell 2018
|Conti is a masculine form of pastel one of my favorite mediums
Lurking © 2005 E.D.Ridgell [Conti on Paper] |
Come the Mating Season,
the winds of autumn egg on,
spice among the dried, standing stalks
of jealous husks;
vaporous fingers beaconing,
come deeper into the wood.
Dewy eyed does,
innocent and alluring,
perfuming the air,
briefly taunt at the meadow’s edge,
gesturing with their white flags-
eager, atypically bold.
Stags snort the stages of the rut
in the chilly, pre-dawn-
eyes, blood shot circles with bulls-eyes, stalk
even as they scrape and mark with glandular
fiercely, guarded territory;
wood, corn field, secluded meadowland-
fields of battle to shame and tame the bucks.
the mounted delivery-
eager, so eager for the seed.
The instinct to breed-
the chaotic performing of rites;
natural prescriptions of some source?
There is that encumbrance
on all that is born.
living feeds off of something else living-
one dying for the needs of the other, or just for being gotten
caught out in the cycles that must turn just so.
Death is prescribed and constant.
And so, that lowered guard,
so uncharacteristic, becomes a hole
spewing and spurting the life blood of any
caught in the centered sites of the adamant.
He dies, carcass flung, hung,
and pieced per need or want,
the morality of it dismissed as nothing more than
the feigned, feminine mask of Eve.
the first season, if the last be not lethal,
the, once again, cautious and retiring does
deliver with a mystery as old as their lines,
running back to the beginnings of time,
their evolutionary results
of some Big Bang,
simply the birthing of the little fawns of spring.
© 2008 by E.D. Ridgell
On The Queen’s Seventieth Wedding Anniversary
I was all of three maybe four
the place like the grazing chickens,
When I encountered him, one of dozens of old men,
Lounging around on the rustic, lawn furniture
Of Grammy’s self-style nursing
I suppose I expected him to be welcoming
With that all encompassing and sure hug of hers-
Grammy hug that to this day I can still feel, smell, and fall into-
A mixture of floral, bart
cloth, talcum powder, and eu de cologne.
He let it be known that, no, I was not his grandchild
and I took his point to heart.
There would be mingling
enough but never, ever, any softness.
He seemed to me the oldest and coldest man in my tiny
I’m not even sure where they planted him. I am sure I don’t care.
He died quickly of a stroke as she lay wasting away into the cancer cavern.
remember his funeral and that my mother’s tears shocked others.
No, grandparents were not fulsome things to me-
An aunt and some cousins filled in
I hadn’t had all that good a recollection of my West Coast grandfather,
Although the last time I did see him he got silly and donned a woman’s feathered hat-
I liked that! She and I had gone to see “Oklahoma” together. She is all good memory.
I’ve tried to be the best grandfather I could be given the circumstances.
Each has at least one poem penned to each and I’ve always been a particular gift giver.
I like to give gifts, more so than to receive them, really. I think that’s a self affirmation,
Although every poet has one ear to his reader, that’s just common sense.
pen is mightier than the sword and wielded just so an “ I love you” for the ages!
E. D. Ridgell, The Queen’s Seventieth Wedding Anniversary
|I'm the only one left in the group
What will I do with these
Pine needles this fall,
That have been for some twenty years
Warm bedding for your geese through winter?
How should I feel at this lonely raking,
With its lumbering, one-handed bagging,
As the shedding pines
"Where is Lorraine?"
Do I sense a gloating at left-lain bounty?
Years ago with
six rakes raking,
We all were gleeful at the newly, gotten geese.
There were needles enough bagged away,
overheard gloating rooting
Under our poaching of their acidic expectations.
I remember a cold autumn’s
When here we raked in the knowing fear
Of a premonitory, winter’s wake
For our cancerous and chilliest
He offered small piles muddled with fallen colors,
Auspices to usher in the winning season;
Under pines reckoning.
Amidst sounds of raven’s caws
In a stand of snotty
I am a lonely raker raking,
Amongst the taunting pines needling
Their haunting and wistful chorus,
"Where is Lorraine?"
© 2009 by E.D. Ridgell
|I did this sometime in the Seventies...Conti on Paper
|Again, Conti which is pretty much limited to these colors- Earthen Colors
Landscape in Conte © 2005 E.D.R.
|The Artist Sturgis an ancestor of mine on my Mom's side.
Daddy’s a Real Live Artist
And she just all of a sudden said,
“Daddy, you’re a
real live artist, aren’t you?”
I just nodded yes.
I didn’t know then it would be a test.
Daddy won’t mimic a child’s hero!
Art is more important you see
false front of me.
I hope that you will weigh my “to be”
With what some falsely see.
be free and I’ll risk the fee-
For Daddy is a real live artist, you see.
Sown of Plantagenets
And rough men of the sea
You need no better pedigree.
I hope you’ll still love me
© 2005 E.D.Ridgell
Why was it you wanted a Sulpician, you, a Pole?
But, then, you did not have time to
explain this last rite,
before falling into that antechamber dispassionate and in-between.
I swear there was
smoothness to it like Chivez Regal,
that comradery at our meeting so immediate it needed no chaser.
It was not some
barroom, blood-brotherhood sealed with a boilermaker.
I stood at the broken post of the four poster bed
pondered a scene as from Brideshead Revisited,
trying to suppress tears deemed unmanly.
Grief, the wood-walk
on stilts through a mad void,
was, with time, tempered folding in the feeling-stalks
that grabbed at the sky just
after your dirge.
I was so bruised and burned, seared and scorched,
at the cremation of that broad racked,
well tined friendship,
I forgot the bliss and history of it. Forgive a friend!
When, You Thick-headed Pollack,
my time comes,
if time allows, I’ll call for a Sulpician to bestow
forgiveness upon him before crossing over
to box those Golabki ears.
© 2007 by E.D. Ridgell